★Vincent★

I've been humming this song a lot recently,

when I'm walking to work,

or when I'm waiting for the bus,

alone....

I guess i've been having this habit,

to block myself from the rest of the world...

to have my mind not thinking bout anything else...

other than the tune....

I've always liked this song by Don McLean a lot...

But I'm more drawn towards how Joanna Wang sends her emotions across through this song

王若琳 － Vincent

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflecting Vincent's eyes of China blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hands

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as
beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn on a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will

♥迷宫♥

不擅于对你表达，很自责

忍受我的任性，委屈了

起起伏伏的情绪，困扰了

不时的犹豫，不时的不定

觉得是必经的

只是像迷宫

有些，我不想说出口

也有些，我不想承认

可能和我遇到挫折的逃避习惯有关

未来有一天，

也许我会不经意的当成玩笑来表达

到时候，应该不重要了吧

如果真的不重要，也可能会忘了

近期来的压力，和种种因素

我只能转向用文字，纪录心

所以，不想公开这个小小的空间

只和少数分享

最近，王若琳的声音能平复混乱的心情

这首迷宫是中文版的 Let's Start From Here

歌词，很喜欢

因为太符合了

你也会喜欢吗？

王若琳 － 迷宫

看著你　看窗外　瞧瞧變紅的叶
輕輕的　你的手　又握緊了一些
該不該讓你到我的世界

let's start from here　無所謂　慢慢來

迷宮一樣的未來　轉一個圈
會到哪裡　我喜歡愛情有點神秘
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here

陪著我　喝咖啡　愛在空氣裡
暖暖的是你的笑　趕走心情的灰
我想我不在意你曾愛過誰

Let's start from here
無所謂　就算愛　　像空沙發在等待
擁抱著　是不確定　我喜歡愛情多點驚喜

I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

愛一個人怎麼開始啊　像街上走過那些人們
轉一個彎　預見美好

Start from here
無所謂　慢慢來　迷宮一樣的未來
轉一個圈　會到哪裡　我喜歡愛情有點神秘
無所謂　就算愛　像空沙發在等待
擁抱著　是不確定　我喜歡愛情多點驚喜

I don't care where we go
Let's start from here　um…
Let's start from here　oh…
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

♥回忆，被削掉了♥

在这儿，都好几年了

看着这儿的人，换了一批又一批

心里难免会有点既陌生，又熟息的无奈

这些日子，让我发现，没有任何人事物是永久的

反而，因待在这儿久了，一些美好的回忆会慢慢的被削，被消磨掉

久而久之，留在心里的，就不再是美好的了

美好的，只能凭记忆，埋没在脑里的一个角落

忍着泪，只求无奈的寂寞感能被忽略

不要经历痛心，就选择把心关闭

但不容易，因为习惯了分享，

可是当得来的，却是冷漠和不珍惜，甚至质疑

委屈，只能往肚里吞，因为是自找的

看来，我要寻找新的开始，新的回忆

当时间到了，我就不能回头。

又来了

我以为，

一切都很理想，

以前的，都不可能会发生

怪我胡思乱想好了，

我就是，怎样！

一而再，再而三，

叫我怎样嘛！

那是什么心态，恕我不理解

我知道可能是抱着玩玩的心态

但有些无心的举动是会伤人的

虽然不是什么大事情，但我可不想积少成多

这篇，看到与否，做什么感想，自己思考吧。

反正有人只看图，不看文。

♥AMORPHOUS♥

Past few days, I've been getting my hands into 

sketching, drawing, putting ideas together, sampling 

and it goes on and on and on...

This design project is due in a week! *EEK!!!*

still got sooo much to do, but quite excited bout how it'll turn out~~~

this is sort of my first attempt doing things this way,

cause i'm somehow being known as the asian lil' kid

with simple-looking designs, but somehow hard-ass to construct >_<

i bet the technicians just LURVE me... Ha ha ha...

Promostyl has always been THE book to look at

 before u start any designs!

no wonder they cost hell lot for each season >_<

took inspirations from some of the informations in Promostyl,

decided to go mineral, organic, AMORPHOUS is the word...

Did a quick modeling on the stand with some sampling I did...

mind the crap bodice, it's just a pile of calico on the dummy, 

don't want dummy to go naked in front of the camera *shy*

I was THAT close to loosing my toolbox today in ZARA,

don't wanna elaborate, but I had a panic attack and I was gonna vomit!

It's such a posh black leather case, I know it's lovely, 

but please don't ever disappear again.

I NEED YOU!

_________________________________________________

Finally, get to skype with B after what seems like ages...

CNY must be so busy back home for him to be this busy *jealous*

Spending CNY in uk, definitely not the first for me..

but it has always makes me wanna be home >_<

I love dressing up and going to different places with mom and dad

I love the lion dances and hearing them from miles away

I love seeing my cousins and friends, gossiping and shopping

of course, I love the ang pau-ssssss as well! who doesn't!

I was home last year and managed to spend CNY as well

but it was so different, compared to before I left to UK

Very different, from when Grandma was still around

I still get a bit emotional when it comes to her

I bet I'm not the only onee.

Miss you popo,

Love you forever.

♥

___________________________________________________________

As mentioned before,

I'm actually still on skype with B

but B is still in bed... hehee...

it's already 11am back home! WAKE UP!

It's funny sometimes, to see B toss and turn in his sleep

*don't hear me wrongly, I DO NOT stare at the window and look at him sleeping*

Just every now and then... hahaha

B is just too adorable! 

No wonder I love him so much  ♥

♥Helpless无助 。 Loneliness孤独♥

When you are all alone, 

not even able to move a finger, 

that is when you will be hoping for someone who cares, to be there for you.

It was not good at all

Don't want to sound like I'm moaning here,

but just wanted somewhere for me to throw things at.

This week had been weird.

This week was a series of weird sick routines.

It was not usually like this.

It may not be the worst, but It's definitely harder going through it alone.

汗，让我衣服湿了又干，干了又湿。

痛，来得突然，却不会完全离我而去。

逼自己冲凉，却差点晕了。

饿了，没饭吃，因为我没办法煮。还要受气。

Call for help? Who? 

B也只能在电话得另一端，让我好过点。

原来，孤独生病是那么的无助

好几次，都忍不住痛苦得啜泣

梁文音

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

作詞：姚謙　作曲：陳威全

有時候太堅強　笑容卻填不滿眼眶
越是想要隱藏　歌聲就唱的更響亮
直到入到心底最深處 OH~
你不要追問我　還缺了些什麼

每個人都有夢　幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望　越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己　現在還沒有個答案

我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝　像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上

每個人都有夢　幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望　越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己　現在還沒有個答案

我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝　像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上

我不是你想像總是扮演堅強
多想讓你知道我也要個伴
放下討厭武裝　像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上

我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

★受保护★

事情发生第二天，B才告诉我

本来满冷静地，消化了过后，我就吓哭了

心想，怎么会发生这种事情呢

真的心痛了，听了心疼，看了更心疼

真想立刻回去，

但，我人在的话，我应该当场就吓傻了吧

变得矛盾

我身在远处，也陆续被通知了

更了解，也更心疼，更气

气，是因为发生了这种事

气，是因为牵涉到我身边的人

气，是因为大家开始对我有所保留

气，是因为他们怕我担心

这事情，闹大了

不尽早有交代，就会不了了之。。。

B，别担心，我没事的

你要没事哦，你没事就好。。。

★you can only turn 18 twice★

It has been more than 2 weeks since my birthday, and it's my bad for not updating on it...

Didn't really do much... 

I've had my party on my birthday eve at Tribeca's bed... ended up too crowded cause Sing.Soc brought everyone from their D&D >___< 

I think I only know half of the room... but it was a good night, not that I had 100% memory of it... ^___^

At least I was sobering up when I arrived at V-Hall for the next session....mainly was shocked because of the scene of the long looooong Queue outside my friends' flat!!! seemed like the whole of tribeca ended up at V-Hall....somehow...

Picture with the girls.....♥

Picture with the boys... and yes... BOYS!!!

With my personal makeup artist and hair stylist ^___^ DORA~~~ she did my hair and makeup, and made me looked like a princess~~~ love you!!!

Went for VERY late lunch with Vera, Kok and Vera's friend Bernie at Try Thai...Then had dinner with Grace, Sally and Ricky at Franklyn & Benny's.... 

I have no idea how did I managed to fit all those food into my tiny tummy...*sweat*

These are all my lovely presents from my lovely friends.... for a record, I haven't had a soft toy for a while now... hmm... I guess I've passed the age to receive toys...

Oh! Have to mention my first present from my brother, it's a necklace!!! the one right beside the eyelashes~~~

Dear Petra made this yummy chocolate tarts for me.... ^___^ 

How sweet can she be...*happy*

★Emo★

Again, today I went to town alone

 supposed to meet up with someone... but oh well... 

was not even sure why did I go to town again

 been in town alone practically everyday this week

at first it was ok, but then you do it too often that it's getting abit sad... 

i know, i know...I did mentioned in my previous post that I enjoyed going to town alone... 

Just let me be emo once a while =___=

I've been trying to avoid all those Christmas markets, 

cause they just make me fell worse.... 

but since i had to go to the bank in St.Ann square, I couldn't really avoid them >___<

gosh... don't I sound so emo?

couldn't stop myself from peeking at different stalls that I walked pass... 

wooden toys, chestnut, sweets, german hotdogs... 

all these are exactly the same as my first german market experience in Manc... 

oh! but shaking those snowglobes cheered me up ^___^ *pretty*

these stalls reminded me so much of the memories... that just stay as memories now...

Kinda made me realised that I've been here for too long, that it's about time I move to a new environment...

★I like......★

I like bags

I like rings

I like shoes

I like head-gears

I collect bags

I collect rings

I collect shoes

I collect head-gears

★unusual life of von's★

Why is it unusual? hmm.... let's see...

von has been going to uni everyday... except sat and sun....

von has been going to uni even though there are no classes anyway...

von has been staying back in uni till the technicians shooed her and her friends away so they can close up...

von has brought lunch box to uni for the very first time... cause she's sick with eating uni's food everyday *and they are expensive as well*

does that sound unusual? it is for von... must be the final year fever that people had been warning her about

von knows she should have blogged more often... not that she's tooo busy to go online... she's never too busy for FB!

and don't get her wrong about the uni = home issue... 

she still went out for Halloween night out (under the persuasion of Grace's)

she still went to some of those chinese parties...2 of them, to be specific

she even went to Notts games last sat!

OK.. photos....I'm not gonna put everything onto this post... it's pretty l

ate... 1am... ok...not THAT late... but I'm waking up early to fight for Comme Des Garcons in H&M!!!!!! and then back to uni for more work..*pathetic* 

so i need all the energy I can have...

These are from Operation Christmas Child, where we packed some gifts in a shoebox to be sent to some of the poorest kids in the world... i got her coloring books, crayons, soft toy, sweets etc....

Haven't been feeling this contented for a while... felt so good by the end of the night ^___^ hope a girl in some corner of the world would love my box of gifts!!!

★LOVE★

Came across this tea when doing some grocery shopping in town... I find it very eye-catching... ok, the label at the back is a bit tacky, cause I think they went OTT with the whole LOVE thing.... but I still bought it anyway ^___^

I especially like this sentence---*Love is the flower of life*

Enjoying my cup of Tea of Love, in my colorful hearts mug!

★干物女★

It has been 4 weeks since I've been back in uni now....It's not like I didn't have time AT ALL to update my blog, but it just didn't occur to me that ther

e is a need to anymore... hm... not sure why I'm feeling that...

I had been awfully ill for over a week. 

I couldn't speak, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep.

Because I've had sore throat, and had been coughing, till I would cry and vomit.

Thank goodness I'm much better now...Only got cough left...

I have my voice back, although it's not as sweet as before still. 

I could finally eat real food! Not that Grace's and Sally's porridge weren't good... ^__^

With me being sick, I barely go out, other than to uni and work... (I know, can't believe I still have to work at that state) Now, I've been branded anti-social by my brother...LOL...Yvonne? anti-social? that doesn't go....>___<

I would say I'm more of a 干物女, kinda mean Staying home girl.

Now, I enjoy staying home more...

I get to Skype with B...

I get to go into cyber space...

I would do house chores now and then...

I get to cook more...(not that I'm that good a chef, at least I get to practice ^^)

Oh, how can I not mention that I just love doing all those projects and uni work HA HA HA HA HA........

But I enjoyed little outing sessions, 

like dinner with Bim, Lex and the rest for Lex's bday...

Out and about in town with Grace and Sally...(they 

are my two coursemates, I practically see them everyday)

Grace and Yuchieh had been staying at mine for a while, Sally and Ricky too... We get to go to uni on the first day together... go to the Chinese party at M2 together... gosh, it felt like boarding school...LOL

This pic was taken in the lift at my flat on our first day to uni, with Sally and Grace ^^

Oh, and my twin brothers turned 21 a while ago.... This is a cake that I've got for Jee on his bday night...

★I AM Ready★

My room is cosy now,

I will get enough rest in my little space.

I've gotten a haircut today,

I will look fresh for uni tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a fresh start, 

Eventhough it'll be the final year.

May I enjoy this year, an exciting year with no regrets.

Wish me all the best, my beloved ones.......

★FINALLY★

During my Birmingham day out, I made B check my student emails for me...

And so, I found out that I've got an interview with Jo-Y-Jo next morning!!!

was nervous and excited...

And when I've finally gotten back home after those stupid 5 hours coach ride (thanks to the driver who couldn't find his way),

I checked my emails again, and guess what!!!

Hi Yvonne,

You have now been transferred (as of today) onto the final year of the CDT degree.

I have spoken to your year tutors who will be expecting you on Friday at 9 am in room 50.

Looking forward to welcoming you on the course!

Kind regards

Nathalie

So I think that's it for my interview....and it's time to celebrate!!! and of course, retail therapy!!! *wink*

P/S: for those who knew me really well, you all would have known how much this meant to me *jumping around*

★Traveling Alone★

Not the first time to travel alone,

Not the first time to say goodbyes,

Not the first time at all...

But this time, It felt like it's the wrong time...

And I don't like it at all...

Standing alone, looking for a seat...

Sitting alone, waiting to board...

Watching TV alone, and no one to share the funny bits with...

Not at all strange to all this, 

but this time, it just felt weird.

My only companion during the flight

★CryBaby in Manchester★

Only just arrived today, but the minute I stepped out from the plane, I wanted to hop on the next flight back home again...

I left the all new fancy KK airport (which is totally a miniature KLIA), with swollen red eyes and red nose...I bet the immigration guy thought I got coned or sth, or maybe I'm another baby leaving home for the first time... well, they wouldn't have imagined that I've done this all too many times now >___<

I have never been a crybaby in front of my family and friends whenever I leave. If I ever do,(that would have only been once, ok.. maybe twice), tears usually only start rolling down the second I turn my back at them... but this time, only God knows how many times I have teared up... holding it back, and tear up again...

I know, I'm such a baby......see, I'm tearing up again....

there are loads that I want to update here, but.....oh well, I better stop before I end up with eyes like goldfish tomorrow... 

★Desire★

Not many get to do what they desire,

Not many even know what they desire,

Some dare not even dream their desire.

They can only doubt others who dare to dream.

They can only envy those who achieved.

I will not let myself be one of them.

It will never be easy, no one ever said it is.

With all these realities, I am even more assured and confident of my desire.

Even if I do not get what I desire, I will be happy with my choices and with my life.

★Regrets?★

What a mess I've gotten myself into...

 I don't usually regret making such choices, but this an exceptional case... And I should have seen it coming...

The things that I have to sacrifice in order to make way, I am not prepared... 

Enough said... 

★Can't get enough of this feeling★

I really wanted to blog in chinese... but I still couldn't work out how to type chinese with my new macbook...*silly me*

oh well... will have to make do for now... lucky for those who can't ready chinese *ehem*

been home since 26th Sat... and it has been good so far... ^^

minus the awful turbulence, long hours flight, jet-lag, and random illness..... >__<

been busy with the Azurous event, which will be on 22nd Aug... so which means, will be in KL for a week or so for the event... quite hard to get things done, harder than i expected...

So far, other than that, managed to spend some quality time with my silly one... He lost a lot of weight and tanned.. finally i'm the fairer one now ^^

Only been apart for few months but somewhat felt like ages... 

But I still love the feeling of seeing each other again after a while... Seeing the little changes in each other...

Am so glad to be home...